Not Sure Yet

Where did this come from?

 "There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through
you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this
expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any
other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it.

It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how
it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours
clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have
to believe in yourself or your work.

You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep
the channel open...   No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any
time.  There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us
marching and makes us more alive than the others."

I have been frustrated. I have poured my heart and sweat into a blog and few even knew it was there. I even got some friends to admit that they didn’t read it much.. That was adding insult to injury. I have a decision to make at that point. Has it been worth it spending time with this “hobby?” I mean I have my Social Security income and though I don't live lavishly, I live in Paradise. Yes it sucked that many thought I was making some kind of money with this.

Fortunately, my latest stats are pointing in the right direction. No guarantees but there is hope.